Tangled Tango

To drop all perceptions 
mind and body 
and soul 
has attached itself to--
to dare to be open, to be challenged. Here: 
to let strange hands in 
to tangle up the heart chords, and 
the axons running electric in my mind. 

Alter everything, be engaged--listen, 
watch, talk, be honest. Walk a bit--
just around the corner, even. 

Love is to be tangled 
and open, interwoven, or 
wires out and sparks flying from chest cavities. Yes, 
almost automatic, almost robotic, but 
necessary and true: coming 
and going and ebbing and flowing. 
The motions of people walking by, all 
breathing, beating, being--tangle up in em. 

I try. 
I try hard--
tangled up in everything. 
Again: 
I try. 

See pain, know pain, but touch pain, too. 
Sympathy or empathy, depends on perception, those two do. 

All things move toward goodness. Here we are: 
human. So guarded, why? 
In triumph, I danced around the fire 
and got so drunk and had a story to tell, but 
during trials I learned to love and trust. 
All of us are a trial 
unto each other, yes--
don't be gentle, no, and 
don't be reckless, no, but 
be honest, open, tangled. 

I try. 
I try hard to think about these things. 
It's hard. 
I want happiness. 
I want it.

While walking down the street, 
I shook my ass and spun around to the beat, and 
while I spun I saw an older lady laugh. I stopped 
and laughed, having noticed her notice me. So 
I spun around again, bowed, and waved, and 
saw her laugh some more. 

I said hello and she said I made her night. 
She made mine. Funny how lessons are learned. 

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am not a robot.

aaBuckley said...

Phew.

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